Past Feelings

Emotional Health

nancy
7 min readSep 12, 2024
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Do you believe that in the past you were better? Perhaps a few years back when you were more engaged, more joyful, and calm? Do you cry over the deficiency of the individual you assumed you were before? Do you analyze your ongoing activities in light of what you assume you used to have the option to do before? A few months back, I was lost too in the world of fond memories of my past rendition. There was a disconnect between who I was before and who I was now. I assumed I was losing myself.

Each easily overlooked detail from my past reminded me how cheerful, positive, and fun I used to be. The more I mulled over everything, the less I enjoyed my ongoing adaptation. I assumed I used to have the option to compose better. I used to be more unconstrained. It didn’t assist my case with pondering the past in such a manner. In fact, the distance between me and my life grew. I felt a profound yearning to be what my identity was. To be somebody more joyful, and better. To be somebody quiet and quiet. Somebody who could see existence with rose-hued glasses. How amusing isn’t it? You never value yourself for the individual you proceed to be and afterward unexpectedly, you grieve at the deficiency of somebody you never focused on.

However, why do we do it? I have been pondering it a ton. Is it safe to say that i was truly cheerful before or is it…

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nancy

Spina bifida survivor, college student, learn, laugh, and love. SIMPLY ENJOY LIFE!